Messianic Ideation & Delusions of Grandeur
James KentChapter 20: Psychedelic Information Theory One of the major negative side
effect of psychedelic experimentation is delusional ideation, and one of the
most common pathologies associated with frequent high-dose psychedelic experimentation is
persistent recurring delusions of grandeur. Delusional ideation within
the psychedelic state is to be expected; but when delusional ideations cross
the boundary from dream-state into waking state, this is where the trouble
begins. For instance, in the prologue to this text (Late Night Notes from
the Alien Hybrid Messiah) I caught myself in the midst of a messianic
delusion, a delusion so absurd in its complexity and thin in pretext that
upon sober reflection a short time later was somewhat embarrassing and
laughable. Of course, while having the delusion I was in a borderline conscious
state, eyes closed in a darkened room, simply riffing off noise sparking
through my own brain. Yet somehow, with no external input to speak of, I
managed to convince myself that I was at the center of a massive cosmic
conspiracy involving Christ, aliens, the secret government, etc. I can use this
delusion to dredge facets of my own identity and perhaps learn a little about
my own subconscious fears and desires, but the main point is that I quickly
realized that it was all a passing delusion. When the drugs wore off the
delusion did not persist. It did not stick. But the question remains:
Instead of coming down, what if I had chosen to do more drugs? What if I
actually convinced myself I was the messiah, and couldn't talk myself
out of it even while I was sober? Where would I be now?
Well,
for starters I would have persistent recurring delusions of grandeur, a messiah
complex, and would need a steady supply of drugs to keep me in that delusional
snap for as long as it took to deliver my prophecy and convince everyone else I
was right. This is the trap many psychedelic explorers fall into: They convince
themselves they are at the center of a grand cosmic conspiracy, and that the
only way to resolve the crisis is to do more drugs, and to get other people to
do more drugs to see how right they are. This was the logic that trapped
Timothy Leary, John Lilly, Terence McKenna, and many other latter-day prophets
like Zoe-7. Each one of these prophets of the psychedelic movement believed at
one time or another that they were, in-fact, messiahs, but I say their messages
(respectively) hold no water. Leary claimed that LSD would liberate minds and
create a free society, and also believed he was a secret agent in a cosmic
conspiracy of oppression and freedom. Although he had the secret order of chaos
on his side, his visions ran into many real-world road-blocks and reality
checks. John Lilly claimed high dose Ketamine trips in an isolation tank (or
anywhere, all the time) would allow contact with ECCO, the disincarnate cosmic
intelligence that communicates through synchronistic action. Lilly claims he
was seeking answers and deeper truths, I claim all he came up with was
gibberish and endless hours in the K-hole. Terence McKenna claimed high-dose
mushroom and/or DMT trips would allow contact with aliens and discarnate
entities that hold secrets about the nature of language and the universe, and
could provide artifacts for mapping the end of the time in 2012 from ordered
patterns in the i-ching. We are all waiting to see how 2012 comes and
goes, but let's just say I'm not holding my breath here. Each one of these men
carried their own messianic complexes, but beyond each of these persistent
delusions was the intense need to proselytize and to tell the world about what
they had discovered (drugs), and then styled themselves as pop gurus,
latter-day messiahs, enlightened masters of chaos, and twentieth-century
alchemical magi. Doesn't this sound just like the people with temporal lobe
epilepsy who begin to hear voices and believe they are messiahs?
So
how did this happen? How did the delusional trap suck them in?
The first thing to keep in mind is that persistent
recurring delusions of grandeur (PRDoG) don't typically take hold after a
single isolated psychedelic voyage. Though one might run up against some savory
delusional, messianic, or paranoid ideation in a single trip, the content
derived from a single psychedelic session is often easily forgotten, dismissed,
or toyed with for a while before it simply fades away. The key patterns we are
looking for when approaching persistent delusions of grandeur are 1) high dose
ranges, 2) high frequency of use, 3) ingestion contexts which isolate the user
from external stimulus, and 4) ingestion contexts that revolve around
repetitive rituals, themes, or patterns. In the cases of Leary, Lilly, and
McKenna, each seemed to follow the other's opinion that high-dose
experimentation in complete sensory isolation was the way to go, all (or most)
of the time, sometimes for extended periods of time, often the longer the
better. Each one of these explorers claimed that they were receiving Gnostic
telemetry from the psychic logos of the conscious universe (or something like
that), just as prophets have mystical visions and receive supernatural wisdom
from their Gods. Each of these men claimed to be rigorous thinkers, yet none of
them ever stopped to consider (publicly at least) that they just might be
swimming in their own BS. Each one of these psychedelic pioneers bought their
own fabrications so completely hook line and sinker they were unable to
step back and see reality in any other way. Is this because they were crazy?
Did they drink too much of their own Kool-Aide? I would say the answer is yes,
and that each of these men trapped themselves so thoroughly into their own
delusions that there was no escaping once they were in. And the public rewarded
and supported these delusions with book sales, speaking gigs, and the promise
of exciting "consciousness-expanding" social movements based on their expert
guidebooks and lots of high-dose psychedelic experimentation. Sounds like a
win-win situation, yes? No? Maybe not?
Obviously
Leary was never able to deliver on his promise of an evolved and liberated
society based on the free use of LSD; Lilly was never able to discern anything
from ECCO other than he needed to be doing more Ketamine in order to receive
the next important transmission; and McKenna's archaic revival was hipster
trend masquerading as a social movement, as devoid of meaning as the rave
culture which embraced it, the DMT elves that populated their visions, and the
literal nothing "Timewave Zero" that they swallowed as prophecy. I'm sorry to
lay it all out like this, but like most other spiritual or political dogma, the
psychedelic fairy tales offered up by these great men upon closer inspection
bear little or no resemblance to the actual world we live in. I do not say
this to "dis" them, I think they were very brave to attempt what they did:
Leary being the radical, Lilly being the research wonk, McKenna being the
throwback anthropologist and explorer of the arcane. Each one of these men was
stepping into dangerous territory, unraveled in the entire history of the modern
West. Each of these men was passionate about testing the limits of the human brain
and grasping at the nature of God, the universe, and everything. I understand
this. I grok this. But somewhere along each of their journeys the dogma
got sticky, cast in stone, and they found themselves trapped in the very
ideologies they were selling. They got pulled under, they bit off more than
they could chew, they were surfing on the edge of something big, but that had
no real answers, no exit strategy, no where to go. So what happened to them?
They wiped out.
I
think what everyone would like to know what's missing here is some kind of
mechanistic explanation, or an analysis of the "trigger" which could turn your
normal, recreational psychedelic experimentation into a trap as insidiously
recursive and self-referential as persistently recurring messianic delusions of
grandeur. And the culprit is, I assert to you, good old neural plasticity
and brainwashing. According to the primary tenet of Hebbian neural
plasticity, "Neurons that fire together wire together," which means that
neurons which spend a lot of time processing the same information or
remembering a lot of the same concepts at the same time, invariable begin to
form hard-wired connections between themselves to solidify concepts and make
"thinking" a more energy efficient task. Thus, delusions formed in a single
psychedelic session are not necessarily hard-wired, and can fade in mere hours.
But delusions which are solidified in successive, ritually-programmed trips can
easily form lasting, hard-wired connections in long-term-memory. Couple neural
plasticity with sensory isolation and the obsessive nature of psychedelic
feedback in the excited cortex, and you have a model for a turbo-charged
re-wiring of neural connectivity through extended psychedelic programming
otherwise known as brainwashing. Yes, brainwashing.
If
you are following my discussion here, you will now realize what I am asserting
is that Leary, Lilly, and McKenna all actually brainwashed (yes,
brainwashed) themselves into believing their own flimsy delusions, thus
convincing themselves they were onto something larger than rationality would
normally allow. And not only did they spread their brain-eating delusions to
the masses through the Eucharist of high-dose psychedelic drug experimentation,
they sold the primary auto-brainwashing technique to the masses as well:
sensory isolation.
Some
might call auto-brainwashing "metaprogramming," and this is fine, but if you
are metaprogramming yourself to believe a flimsy and preposterous fairy-tale
without any hard evidence (other than your own drug-fueled visions) to back you
up, this sounds a lot like brainwashing to me. Metaprogramming is a legitimate
term for any hands-on rewiring of the neural structure, and auto-brainwashing
is a good example of the "bad" or "reckless" kind of metaprogramming. In truth,
psychedelics are perfect for all kinds of brainwashing, but particularly useful
in the kind of brainwashing used in religion, which is generally based on the
divine teachings of a single individual (or dogma) and the notion of "faith"
(or the willingness to believe) that this dogma is the true word of God as
passed through the prophet. Leary believed his message in a Darwinian
behaviorist model: LSD + human nervous system = Enlightened Being, there was no
room for error in his formula (unfortunately). Lilly cast his prophecy in the
divine interpretation of random chaos, but his temple is full of relativist
noise, no questions or answers there, just more babble retrieved from time
spent (wasted) in the hole. And McKenna was a legitimate genius who became too
enamored with his own imagination; a scholar genuinely steeped in lore, but
stumped by his own inventiveness. McKenna was also unable to drop his madcap
stage persona long enough to step back and admit he just might be spinning an
elaborately detailed fantasy, the very same way Leary had done with LSD and
Lilly with Ketamine. Weren't these people watching and listening to each other?
Couldn't they see it coming for themselves?
I'm
not saying that Timothy Leary was the first case of messianic psychedelic
auto-brainwashing in history of mankind their were no doubt others in our
glorious entheogenic past but he was definitely the first in Western culture
to hit the media so hard with his prophetic (yet problematic) message. Leary
was huge, and influenced ageneration (or two, or three) of psychedelic explorers in his
wake. Leary's auto-brainwashing techniques were picked up by many, the MKULTRA
crew and Charles Manson just to name a few, and were echoed for years by
Terence McKenna in his own way. But the problem of auto-brainwashing is real,
even if you are not intending to go that way (even more so, perhaps). I will
mention that in addition to the neural plasticity aspect of psychedelic
auto-brainwashing, I would not be surprised if repeated high-dose
experimentation with psychedelics could lead to the kind of petit-mal seizures
seen in temporal lobe epileptics, which means there might be a very real chance
of brain damage in the temporal lobe that could lead to increased erratic
functioning and messianic ideation over time. Again, I am talking about repeated,
high dose experimentation over a period of days-to-weeks, not the casual
trip here and there. And for those of you who would like to precisely pinpoint
where this damage or temporal re-wiring might be the most extreme, I would say
the first place to look would be in the entorhinal cortex, in the medial
temporal lobe. From a 1999 doctoral dissertation on the area:
The human entorhinal cortex
is located in the ventromedial portion of the temporal lobe and consists of
eight subfields. It has reciprocal connections with the hippocampus and various
other cortical and subcortical structures, and thus forms an integral component
of the medial temporal lobe memory system.
The number of neurons of the
entorhinal cortex is diminished in temporal lobe epilepsy (Du et al. 1993) and
in Alzheimer's disease (Gomez Isla et al. 1996).
Epileptic seizures... of the
temporal lobe, [produce] psychosensory events including taste, smell, fear, sexual
pleasure sensations, and memory disturbances (Engel 1996).
In addition to the
hippocampus proper, other medial temporal lobe structures are involved in TLE,
such as the amygdala (Kälviäinen et al. 1997, Pitkänen et al. 1998) and the
entorhinal cortex (Du et al. 1993). Cell loss is the most profound in layer III
of the rostral entorhinal cortex (Du et al. 1993). In experimental studies of
status epilepticus of rats, layer III of the medial portion of the entorhinal
cortex is suggested to be the most vulnerable (Du et al. 1995a). Evidence is
also beginning to point to the entorhinal cortex as one of the primary sites in
which temporal lobe seizures propagate and reverberate (Spencer and Spencer
1994). Furthermore, the structural changes in the entorhinal cortex might
propagate changes in the hippocampus.
Mikkonen, Mia. the human entorhinal cortex: Anatomic organization
and its alteration in Alzheimer's disease and temporal lobe epilepsy. Series of
Reports, No 50, Department of Neurology, University of Kuopio. 1999. 91 p.
http://www.uku.fi/neuro/50the.htm
So,
if we are to fully make the connection between psychedelics, brainwashing,
delusions of grandeur, and temporal lobe epilepsy, the first place we would
look is the entorhinal cortex and its close interconnectivity with the
hippocampus and memory processing. The proper functioning of the entorhinal
cortex is essential to accurate memory storage and recall, and damage to this
area can lead to the formation of persistent delusions as well as the loss of
accurate memory recall. Since the entorhinal cortex is so important in the task
of parsing multi-modal sensory data into accurate memory storage, this would be
the first place to ply the tenets of neural plasticity when trying to get
someone (including yourself) to equate specific ideas or memories with pleasure
or pain (as in behavioral hypnosis); alter internalized concepts of self in
relation to others (as in psychotherapy, neurolinguistic programming, or
metaprogramming); or to get them to believe things that are not true, or to
create false ideas of themselves or reality based on false memories (as in
brainwashing). What we are talking about here is a selective rewiring or
deliberate destruction of areas of your memory cortex in the pursuit of a higher
truth about the self. This is very bad territory to be walking into. The
farther you go into the brainwashing process, the more you begin to believe
your own delusions (formative delusions). The more impressed the delusions
become in your memory, the longer they persist (explicit delusions). The longer
they persist, the more you begin to filter everything else about reality around
those delusions (integral delusions). Finally, the delusions become so intricate
and complex that they color the context of everything you see or hear or
remember about anything. Delusional intensity has now reached the immersive
level. Brainwash complete. The delusions can take any form: the free
market; Jesus; Allah, aliens; ECCO; the apocalypse; conspiracies; hate-filled
ideologies; free-love ideologies; etc., but the basic brainwashing system is
the same for all of them. Isolate them, hit the entorhinal cortex, hit it hard.
Make them believe.
The
pattern of high-dose/high-frequency use of any psychedelic or dissociative
(with or without ritual dogma) is typically not good for the psyche and usually
leads to a direct withdrawal from society and some hard falls into delusional
territory. I speak both as one who has felt the lure of succumbing to the
delusional trap, and as one who has met many who have fallen into same said
trap themselves. And I can say with some confidence that stopping the
drug use early-on in the process of an auto-brainwashing slide clearly allows
messianic delusions to fade over time; but persistent use clearly causes
the delusions to become more complex, intertwined, and solidified over time.
Unfortunately I cannot tell you exactly where the "point of no return" mark is
in repeated high-dose psychedelic experimentation. If I had sailed off that
edge of the map this would be a totally different text altogether. But
what I can tell you is this: tread very carefully when walking into alluring
psychedelic waters, and always reality-check yourself on the comedown to make
sure you haven't permanently dropped your rationality and stepped right over
into the deep end. Because once you pass the point of no return, you are in it,
full time, and are basically on your own. And from what I gather from
the signposts: here there be monsters.
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